wowness

[rinnia]

i made a new layout for my livejournal! this one features garnet/dagger from final fantasy ix and lyrics from "the reason" by hoobastank. i know, i know, that song has been way overplayed this summer, but i've loved ever since the first time i heard it, so phbt. i wanted to use it.

so, hurricane charley is really over, and i've heard from jaime. he's well, and his home isn't too damaged, so i really can't complain. not being able to talk to him for nearly a week really taught me something, though.

i love him. i love him a lot.

i was so depressed not knowing how he was, and as soon as i heard from him, i cried and trembled, i was just so happy. i'll leave out many of the details of the conversations that ensued, as there are things that shouldn't be discussed publicly. suffice to say, i think he was just as happy to be talking to me again.

i can't wait for school to start. i've been wanting something to work on, and that still holds true. but now, i've also got the promise of seeing him again once i'm back. i did the long distance thing, and it had some inherent flaws. i think i've avoided those difficulties by being so close with him for so long, working together, hanging out together, and practically living together. being away from him feels like the exception, not the reverse.

this year's gonna be great. i can feel it. i know i'll bitch and moan about the work, but i'll have my friends again, i'll have my jaime, and i'll have the satisfaction of actually being challenged and learning.

caltech is the only place i've found that is both heaven and hell at once. and god, do i love it.