rinnia | You have to believe "This'll be my year."

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You have to believe "This'll be my year."

I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do with my future - engineering could be nice. Writing could be nice. Web design could be nice. Hell, selling my own beauty products online could be nice. The point is, I have a lot of options I want to explore, and I've been trying to come up with the best compromise of them, until I have a better idea of what I want.

UF will allow you to defer admission for one year without having to reapply. I think that's what I'm going to do. Then I'll have a year to work and build up some cash, try my hand at writing for real, and see if the engineering world is where I want a career. It's the most appealing option to me, at this point, but I'm a little afraid of disappointing people.

I just want to be me, you know? And I know the engineer is a huge part of me, but I'm not sure if I want it to be the career part just yet.

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At least you're leaving your options open and not committing to anything too early. That never ends well. But you gotta do what you want to do, and it is nice to have those options. Just don't feel pressured into anything.

Ignore anything that's not applicable to your circumstance. I'm just writing from my own annoying experience of the past eighteen months.

Also, UF? For reals?

Indeed, the MechE grad school accepted me. :) So, even if I defer, I will be going to Florida this summer, probably Gainesville, Orlando, or Tampa.

Don't worry babe, you wont dissapoint ANYBODY. and plus, if you do, they didn't care anyway. :)

LOVE YOU!!!! :D:D:D:D:D
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Yeah, I hear this quite a bit from graduating seniors here that I talk to. This is why I want to take some time off and teach in another country. Clear my mind and see if teaching is the way to go and what-not. Take some time to look at things from a perspective that isn't one of a traditional student. I've been doing that for 15 years and what-not.

You guys still looking to move down here? Done any online searching/shopping for housing?

Yeah, the one thing we're certain of is that we're going to Florida. I looked at some apartments online, and it seems like once we find work, we should be able to afford something nice no problem. We actually talked about looking at stuff in Tampa and seeing if you'd want to share an apartment with us. My only requirement is that it has to be pet-friendly, as my ferrets are coming with me. But yeah, Orlando or Tampa seem to be the biggest options right now.

Best of luck deciding your future!

I think that taking a year off is a good idea. It's best to do it now before the pressures of bills, kids, etc. really kick in.

On a pragmatic note, the market for writing is small and over-crowded. Of the authors I have talked to, most have, on average, had to submit five or six novels before even one was selected for publication, and very, very few professional authors are able to get by without doing other work on the side. At the last convention I went to, the consensus was: "If you like to write, then write your heart out, and submit often, but even if you get a book deal, don't quit your day job." In particular, the professional (and most prolific) short story writers maxed out at around 5k per year.

Anyways, dabble around, enjoy yourself, and eliminate those nagging "what-ifs" so that they don't haunt you for the rest of your life. :)

Yeah, I know writing couldn't be an end-all-be-all, unless I hit Stephen King status or something equally amazing and unlikely. But if it's really something I want to do, then I can't pick a career that consumes all my time. At least everyone seems to be supporting my decision - that makes things a lot easier. :)

oh man, i really wish tech better prepared people for getting to senior year and realizing that maybe there's life outside science/math/engineering. nobody talks about it! so when you do think stuff like that (okay, when *i* do) i feel like a freak.

but yeah. it sucks a little, but do what makes you happy. deferring sounds like a great idea. best of luck to you!

baby pickle - if it is me you are worried about - please remember that my only wish for you is to be happy and live your life as you see fit. follow your heart and your head - you will always succeed. and you will always be my most proud achievement of my life - no matter if you are washing dishes or running the world!!!

you are such a wonderful, amazing person. please don't worry about disappointing me ever - god - there is no way on earth you could ever do that - except if you give in to pressure and don't do what is best for you - just you!!!!

you are my darling daughter and my love and pride in you couldn't be greater - and i am sure you know that in your heart. don't fret little honey bunny pickle pie - you will always be the apple of her mommy's eye!

trust your heart - remember that in the end you have to live what you love - life is oh so short and precious - and i know your grandma lois agrees with me - she loved you to distraction and always wanted only for you to be happy.

as for your dad - blah! don't worry about it - and besides you don't have to tell him anything you don't want to. you can tell him when you are ready - or not - as you see fit.

i love you baby doll - and i am so very proud to have you as my daughter.

kisses always,
momie

What I meant to say was that you couldn't dissapoint any of us because we all care about you enough to be happy with your choice(s) simply for the fact that you are. And that if there are some hard times (finantial, or other) that you are more than capable of getting through it. Not to mention, we would all be willing to help anyway. :)

Thanks, Cam. The amount of support I've gotten is really overwhelming. I'm glad everyone's behind me on this. :)

anytime :)

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my previous comment was kinda dumb. haha. sorry.

now it's logged in. hahha. god, I'm dumb sometimes.

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