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and if i saw myself today, with a different set of eyes...
so i'm home, in reno. it's a bit weird to be back, but then, it always is. mom's... not acting very comfortable around me. it's weirding me out. *sigh*
i've been very introspective lately. i'm not so sure what i'm doing with my life anymore. everything that was ever stable is no longer so, and i have this hollow little feeling in my gut like something is horribly wrong.
not sure why... outside my head, everything's fine. *shnuggles her ferrets* but still... i dunno.
maybe it was learning how to give my brother an injection.
maybe it was the depression surrounding finals this term.
maybe it was the realization that i have no control over my own means to live.
maybe it was just the feeling of being alone.
one way or another, i'm... *shrugs* meh. huh.
i've been very introspective lately. i'm not so sure what i'm doing with my life anymore. everything that was ever stable is no longer so, and i have this hollow little feeling in my gut like something is horribly wrong.
not sure why... outside my head, everything's fine. *shnuggles her ferrets* but still... i dunno.
maybe it was learning how to give my brother an injection.
maybe it was the depression surrounding finals this term.
maybe it was the realization that i have no control over my own means to live.
maybe it was just the feeling of being alone.
one way or another, i'm... *shrugs* meh. huh.