motivation, such an aggravation

[rinnia]

yeah. so lack of motivation is really the problem here. i know what i want to write, and i know what i want the layout to look like, but i just can't seem to build up enough excitement about it to build. *sighs*

that, and not a single one of my applications to thefanlistings.org has been answered, neither approval nor rejection. i'm beginning to wonder if they're even going through.

i wish i could hate how i feel right now, but i'm too apathetic to even do that, and i'm not sure why. meh.