I've been taking my pills; really, I have.

[rinnia]

Ate some soba, drank some black lager, and watched the Mythbusters' Alaska special. Feeling slightly... homesick? Is it still homesick if it's wanting to visit where you spent more than half of your life thus far but haven't been to in almost ten years? Anyway, whatever that feeling would be. I'm that.

On the plus side, Adam's reaction to the yeti was hilarious and adorable at the same time.

Also, I spent way too much money today. Granted, it was all on awesome stuff and I think the only thing I purchased full price was glow-in-the-dark embroidery floss for a staggering $2.50, but I'm still rocking the guilt. Not buyer's remorse. I don't regret obtaining these objects. I will wear the jeans and play the game and craft with the beads and... cuddle the unicorn pillow pet... I just have this lingering mental block when it comes to spending money on myself. Like I'm not worth it, even though I've done so much therapy to work on that. Damn.

Sleep? Sleep.

Comments

[eidolon-nine.livejournal.com]

Nothing wrong with being homesick, our youths shape us pretty indelibly. Of course, nothing gets rid of nostalgia like going back, and then being reminded of all the annoying things you had conveniently forgotten...

It's so easy to get caught up in guilt over spending when you could be saving, but then, if all you do is deny yourself... it meansd you deny yourself, and deny yourself, and then you get old and feeble and die. Which would mean that life kinda sucks the whole while. So rock the unicorn pillow. Whatever makes life bearable.

[rinnia.livejournal.com]

How'd I end up with such an insightful friend? :) Seriously, thanks. That all makes a lot of sense.