inquiry and bloodlust

Take everything I say in the next week or so with a grain of salt. In four days, Jaime and I are heading up to UF for Ph.D. recruitment, and I'm vacillating between extreme excitement and crippling nerves. I'm sure when I'm actually there it'll be fun and informative and comfortable, but I'm the type to fret, so right now, I'm fretting. Oh, how I'm fretting. Jaime keeps reminding me that I don't have to know everything going in - learning is what school is FOR. That doesn't stop me from freaking out at deficiencies in my knowledge, though.

In my moments of clarity, I know I can handle this. I was completely honest on my application, and (if I may boast for a moment) they said I was one of the top applicants. That has to mean something. I know I'll do well.

The rest of the time? OHGODFLAILPRESSURE!

So. Yeah. Don't mind me. I'll be in the corner swaying and reading textbooks.

I have short haaaaaair. I love it. It's about chin length on the sides, shorter in back and layered in front, and curly like crazy. Most of all, though? I love how it only takes five seconds to brush instead of five minutes.

New chapter of Gakuen Datenroku came out a couple days ago. Why oh why has Angelic Days been licensed but this hasn't? I'm pretty sure Kaworu is supposed to be creepy here, but mostly I find him fascinating and endearing in a weird way. I don't know. Maybe I'm just messed up. I couldn't even find Evil Kaworu of the main series manga off-putting. Freaky, yes, but ultimately understandable, and thus, not unlovable. To me, at least.

Friendly Hostility and Questionable Content may very well be dead to me. I'm not pleased with the shenanigans happening in either at the moment (though I haven't really enjoyed Questionable Content in... ever? Why do I keep reading it?!). Honeydew Syndrome, on the other hand, is also playing with pairings dangerously, but it's doing so in a compelling rather than an infuriating way. Kudos, HoneySyn.

Kudos also to The Decemberists. The Rake's Song is awesome and fucking disturbing at the same time. Read the lyrics. No, really. Read them. And yet, the song is bouncy, catchy to a fault. I cannot sing this song. I want to sing along, but there is no way I can sing those lyrics under my breath as I walk. It just... it can't happen.

Jaime didn't catch it at first. I started going, "Oh GOD!" and he was very confused. "This is disturbing!" I said.

He just blinked at me. "What?"

Then he got sent that same lyrics link, and he laughed like crazy. I'm still a little shuddery, yet I can't stop listening to it. What the fuck, Decemberists. What. The. Fuck.

If you guys haven't filled out my holiday card poll yet, please do. I'd like our room to be a glitterstorm come craftin' time. :)

Congrats to Cathy for already passing 50000 words for NaNoWriMo! She's shooting for 100000 now, which means it's cool that I haven't been writing lately - she's totally picking up my slack. Ahhh, friendship.

Sami - I got the package! Thank you!!! The Dream Cream is amazing, especially for Jaime's poor hands, and the other stuff is excellent as well and smells so good. Oh, and the Devil in the Dark soap! I don't think there's any way you could've known this, but mint is my weakness, so that stuff is just scent-heaven. Everything you put in there was win, actually. :D I'm playing with all of it, rest assured, and once I finish The Devil's Cup, I'll definitely be starting in on Deep Survival.

Speaking of reading, I'm building a list of manga to read as time permits. Any recs? At the moment, I'm only looking at stuff on OneManga, but I'm open to all sorts of suggestions. Really, recs in all genres are welcome. My current list is ( cut for length. )

Jaime has an appointment tomorrow morning (every MWF, thanks to cumulative damage to his counts), so I really should go to sleep. It's been kind of a rough week; I don't feel like going much into it. Suffice to say, it's been wearying both temporally and emotionally. The point is that even though I'm exhausted (and not from any physical exertion. I really wish I could find the motivation for that.) and need to sleep, it's becoming harder and harder for me to actually lay down and let go. It all just snowballs. I guess I'll give it a try, at least. Goodnight, all. Hope everyone's lives are running smoother than ours at the moment.